Revamp.. moving soon.

revamp.

2005-08-10T02:05:00.000-07:00

revamp..

blogs.

2005-07-21T12:00:00.000-07:00

eh dumb taggers.

can u tag ma board now?..

hehs..

=)

2005-06-30T09:57:00.000-07:00

wadever.. it doesnt bother me much. but shows what childish mentality u have..

to the stupid ah beng tagger.

2005-06-19T17:24:00.000-07:00

Stop whining like a stupid son of a bitch. u and ur wad gang?. come.. jus bring it..

if u're gonna fuck my life. fuck it really bad. if i aint pretty screwed, i make sure, i gonna fuck ur whole family up.. i will drag ur family into this.

y not jus fucking get my number and call me up?..

ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THEN WORDS.

stop saying "chee hong, chee bye. my muscles bigger than urs". small talks.. bleah. i do not knw who's your freaking brother and his gf. i think u ought to get a life.

Stop thinking of fighting and get some fucking paper qualifications.!~

itS FRIDAYYYyyyyyyyyyy.

2005-06-10T12:27:00.000-07:00

=)

i jus upload new song. =).. its cute. hope u guys like it..

jus a matter of time..... BEFORE I GET MY BIKE. whee..

woRks as usual.. boring.

= /

i Cant get to sleep

2005-06-10T01:21:00.000-07:00

i asked alicia once.

"why dont u want to have a boyfriend?"

and her reply

"why do i NEED a boyfriend?.. i think singlehood is better, more freedom and no commitment".

=))

but i do miss her. does she knw that she's missed?.

everyday is a holiday.

2005-06-09T11:41:00.000-07:00

wEnt to book my biKe test.

jAm guitars and songs with my pal at his hse.

hit the gym later on..

=) everydays a holiday..

tuesday

2005-06-07T02:40:00.000-07:00

Registered for fcuking NS.

and i have to wait till aug.. not for enlistment. but MEDICAL CHECK UP. its so damn long. what m i goin to do till then?.. den from AUG. wait for another 6months before i go in NS..

Tts shit man. i m basically wasting my time and life. argh.

=)

Dont feel like blogging anymore. i've got some things in my mind..

internets up

2005-06-06T02:34:00.000-07:00

yes people.. sorry for the long update.. my internet was screwed. i cldnt blog much.

anyway i will temporarily using this blog skin. i will eventually change it once i have the time. cos everyday i will be working. y?.. jus for the cash.

yeaaaa. more cash means more shopping and goin out wif u guys rite?..

=))

ok. shall log off to sleep. tml still have work.

working

2005-06-02T16:24:00.000-07:00

i m in sony j8 working now..

shant blog much then..

my com's down.. and its still fucked. i cant blog and use the net.. u guys can get me on my mobile.

chills ppl..

=))

my my

2005-05-26T00:21:00.000-07:00

my sweetheart..

she's so sweet.

=))

2005-05-25T11:29:00.000-07:00

hey peeeps.. my internet is down. and i shall update it when it comes right back up.. =))

have been real busy working everyday.. just to earn the miserable few bucks.

=/

my internet is screwed.. damn.

2005-05-22T09:10:00.000-07:00

my internet is screwed.. damn.

came back from work. work sucks. tink i will quit this stupid job. =((

i've got a gay as my supervisor. and tt really sucks.

and to reply to my tags

To the poser who keeps taggin my board anonymously..

u're just a fucking loser. go get a life. u think u got balls?!.. why dont u call me?.. stop tagging. where's ur balls asshole?!.. yea, i knw i aint good looking like u. no wonder u have to sit behind the com and use ur photoshop and edit ur fucking picture to add the opposite sex. i feel sad for u. probably ur parents are so fucking ugly and when they got u, u're even uglier.. so fuck u.

stop wasting ur time down here.. if u want to pick a fight, come on. row ur roll and shut ur trap, pussy.. is that wad u can tag?!.. is that the best u can do, shit?!.. hah..!.

stop acting as me, u can never be me.. stop taggin as me. cos u can never be me.. try pumping ur biceps as big as mine first..

oOps. i forgot. u've got a pussy.. so its natural for u to back off..! go get some fucking school qualification, fag-in-a-bag.

work

2005-05-21T00:37:00.000-07:00

work work work work..

its so super boring.. craps.

= /

well. got to go sleep now. tomorrow still have to work.

zzzzzzzzzZzzZzzzzzzz

a dedication..

2005-05-17T07:20:00.000-07:00

I opened my drawer, just to see numerous photos of us. The letters attached along to it.. i read it slowly, and emotions started to show.. Feeling what i felt last time - Loved and Missed. My love for you was so true.. and what happened the last 6 months after that?

Yes, we did ended bitterly. But 6months has passed and you're still treating me so cold. You always ask me and talk about your boyfriend. Everythings about him. When i talk to you about something else, you just dont seem interested or rather not interested at all.

I see that you've changed drastically. What have you done to yourself?. Where was the once pure and innocent girl i once used to know?. And where was the friend i used to share my secrets with?.

Am i just a memory of the past that you simply want to forget? Or just a toy for you to play with?

I have feelings too. And time after time, you hurt me again and again. Sometimes i wonder to myself, why am i such a fool?.. but i tell myself, i'll move you someday with my sincerity and i'm still living by it. Hoping to see the same old you. and the better you.

Your lies, your words. I do not know which is true.. You've lied to me so many times that i find myself hard to believe you. Your lies hurts me so much.

I'm not blogging here to ask you for a chance. I know we can never be together. Its not because of the past, its because. i cant afford your luxurious lifestyle. And secondly being, i do not possess goodlooks for you to show off to your friends.

I really hope you can come to your senses and start of afresh as friends.

-i'll pray everynight for the lord to enlighten you-

*its a true knight who gives his enemy a chance to repent*

Friday the 13th

2005-05-13T22:51:00.000-07:00

today's friday the 13th..

n still that ass is not picking up the phone. tts it. i nort returning u ur cash. when u need it, i will return u 1 year later. bleah. sucker..

ok.. went for interview today. and surprisingly surprise. i got the job on the SPOT. work at Fox shop @ wisma. omg.. miserable pay. but guess beggars cant be choosers. FUCK HENCA. i'm the pioneer batch, and u never give me deployment.. Now i guess why the manager and all the supervisor left. Henca's enemy, Max media called me today.. like 11.45am.. and i was still in bed.. the conversation went like tt.

me "hello"

theresa "adriaaaaan, wad are u doin now?.."

me "i jus woke up, nothing much bummin around."

theresa "can work today anot?.."

me "can, wad time?"

theresa " now.. suppose start work at 11am.. at tampinese."

wtf.. 11am start work then 11.45am call me..

but its alright.. i got another job anyway.. hmmms. and went interview for Hang ten. The big fat bitch was so fat.... ok. she's like "i m sorry i cant interview u, cos u are wearing nose studs"

i could only say 2 words "fuck u".. but i just look at her and said. "but can take out." she replied "take out den talk." i was like.. "fine, fat bitch.."

ITS ONLY FUCKING $4 PER HOUR. CHEAP LABOUR. i was currently working for $7 per hour. and guess wad.. I DID A FUCKING ADVERSTISEMENT AD FOR THEM.. and wad wad wad?.. 4 bucks.?!?.. cant even buy macdonald can.. wads worst.. even forced to buy uniform tt's worth $44.50 and must sign bond.. so full of shit..

wasted my time there.. neway.. my com's still down. i wonder when will it be up..

=) i shall dream of my beauty tonight.. tee hee.

-the butterfly in disguise-

friends

2005-05-12T22:50:00.000-07:00

firstly.. wad do u call friends, when they ignore your smses and phone calls.

thats rite..

bastards.. some assholes are like that. they cant be bothered with u unless they need something or want something from u. then they will only call u down..

good friends?!?.. used to be. but that shit got his own group of friends now.. go mix with the ah bengs.. every single thing fight fight fight.. is fighting all he knws wad to do?. SHIT. come fuck with my biceps then.

always want to freeload others. steady steady.. brothers la.. then take fags and alcohol drinks..

sighs.. jus fcuk off.

-shrugs-

yes people.. i know i havent been updating my blog.. MY FREAKING COM'S STILL DOWN. and selfish people dont wanna lend cd key.. wad to do.? yups.. i look really dorky after takin out my braids. hahas. look at my new hairdo. its brilliant. i shall upload pics really soon.. and its called metrosexual..

oh gosh.. so freaking broke. any1 can intro me a job?!?.. $ makes the world go round, the gals go wild, and the guys groan. hehe..

= )

-always your chinese nigger.

hEy..

2005-05-10T16:01:00.000-07:00

Sorry people.. have not been blogging for quite a loooooooong time. was supposed to update but. MY FREAKING COMS DOWN. how irritating.

=) ..

gosh. i m goin to remove my braids. stop telling me not to. i knw its nice. but.. ITS LIKE FREAKING ITCHY.. and all the small hair is poking up.. anyone wanna take a photo, pls book a date soon.. =) bleah.

Craps. still feeling super tired from celine's chalet. all the stupid jackass thingy. hahas. shall pose em for u guys to d/l.. u're gonna laugh ur ass off..

=P. i shall update my blog soon..

KL trip

2005-05-04T20:36:00.000-07:00

hey guys....... i m back from my KL trip. and guess wad?!?.. I GOT MY HAIR BRAIDED AT LAST... whee.

done by real niggers man.

when they started to braid my hair, it was kinda pain at first. and now it itches.. those niggers are funny. =)

some pics.

memories.

2005-04-29T18:08:00.000-07:00

Sitting in the office, looking out of the 30th storey window. i could see the whole of city hall.

Memories start flashing back as i gaze out looking at the tiny people walking along boat quay..
I can still remember vividly, she once frequent there to take photographs. "people, buildings and structures.."and i still remember her. The old her. Her face, and what she wore that day.. I cant seem to forget those happy and enjoyoustime that i spent with her..

The black and white photos she took.. make it seem like history.

It has already been closed to a year. and so many things have happened.
I made a grave mistake. I didnt knw what mistake it was.. I looked above the sky to search for an answer.but found none. Or, did i make a mistake?

Many of u guys ask. "what happened to the adrian i once know?"
Here's the reply - i m still the same old me. but i only grew more matured.

Why must u put up a harsh and cold front in front of me? Why does things have to happen this way?..
I remembered u said "we're still friends."
but u lied.
Maybe the KL trip will do me good.
(and people get this straight, i aint delusional)

__________/the end of the cocoon days.

Sitting down here and stoning in the office does me no good. So many people walked pass and saw me sleeping..
the only think that keeps me awake is-
"my eurasian beauty"
=) everytime i think of her, she make me smile.
the sweetness..
u're my miracle.
hee.

_________/ wrapped up in a cocoon, i await the day to become a butterfly.
-

2005-04-29T10:44:00.000-07:00

lawyer

2005-04-29T01:51:00.000-07:00

i've been working this few days.

Ocbc bank @ raffles place.

n the job?.

-make coffee.
-buy breakfast/lunch.
-buy newspaper.
-photostat.
-send letters.

-play computer.
-read papers.
-sleep.
-admire the view. (30th storey) great view.

i love being office boy. 9-4 job. easy money. hahas.

=)

n i'm suddenly influenced by law. reading mr singh's law books. although its boring, but at least it beats sleeping..

gonna slp now. the last day ahead of my cocoon days. =)

darren's bday

2005-04-24T22:38:00.000-07:00

wEnt for darren's bday yday. n..

HaPPy Birthday my good friend!

we had bbq and tt Jo, cater so little food. craps. so much for being my ex..! hahas. but nonetheless, i saw the rest enjoying themselves, i was busy running up and down with hannah helping out.. =) yEps.. darren, nxt is my bday, must help me ok?.. hahas.

=)

nxt after that. we played a card game.

the players- darren, shaun leong, greg, dong, joel, Bg.

hA.. first greg got drunk.. we ran out of beer, so we changed it to water instead. stakes are like 1/3 cup. hahas. and boy was it really ridiculous......

Fun, enjoyable.. so much happiness. i had never been like so happy after so long. =)..

thank u my frens.

i really hope we do stick together. and stay in contact.. now that everyone has gone to different poly and schools, we shld meet up like twice a month or something.

=)..

i miss the good old stpats days. we used to fight with each other, had bad times, but once we graduate, we are still friends, n good friends. (although some are bastards, force me drink water till have to wake up 3 TIMES at nite to pee. but its fun.)

i hope u enjoyed ur day too, birthday boy.

=)

hEyy..

2005-04-22T01:34:00.000-07:00

alicia : hey my fren would like to know u.

darren : ITS THAT GUY OVER THERE..

i blushed and walk away..

u guys must be wondering, WAD THE HELL IS WRONG WIF ME RIGHT?.. ok. hahas. i oso dunno.

my, my, my.. eurasian beauty. -rejected-

lol. i shall find another 1.

i dunno y i m into eurasian girls. well, maybe a change of taste. hahas. adventurous, explore. =) .. hahas. eurasians are hot.

if i got a choice, i would rather hook up eurasians rather den asians. they r so much HOTTER.. guess i shall try the american style of pick up phrase.

hehs.. shall blog again tomorrow.

~i will find u.. my miracle~

Wheeeeee

2005-04-20T15:58:00.000-07:00

i changed my blog song. =).. its a fresh track. hot hot heat- goodnight goodnight.

hopE its nice..

goodnight goodnight. i dun dream of u anymore. away from my worries. goodbye goodbye. i mean GOODNIGHT.!~

oh well, went to work today. it was super boring.. sighs..

...................

Loggin off now.

its TooooooooooWnnnning session with alicia and the group from RP.

=).

thanks

2005-04-17T03:00:00.000-07:00

Great Thanks to :

Chen & Dong - for cripple-cross-face and ankle lock on me. (2v1 not fair.). what a night, but its enjoyable. reminds

Tian - for the fags.

Rp kid, hannah - for the blog sound background

Darren - for accompanying me to gym (although most of the times u're late.) hahas. -grins-

A girl name Fate, (i do not know her, but some how she sms me and we share our probs. i seriously do not know her but she is nice. its great having a mysterious friend) - thanks for listening to my probs. a special dedication to u. awwwwww.. (i know right now, u're feelin down, dun worry k?.. everythings gonna be fine.) =P

-blog blog blog blog-

so many plans, but so little time.. prioritize wads the most important. but wad's the most important thing?!?.. sighs. another day gone.

love.

2005-04-15T14:10:00.000-07:00

Love. noun

1. A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.

2. A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.

I look up the meaning for love and this is wad it is shown.. many young couples often goes into a r/s is because they want to be loved and to love. the feeling without being loved is indescribable.. they often mix love up with lust..

And when the problem arises, the only way they resolve it is by breaking up. They do not want to talk about it and how to resolve it. "to love" is also to "to understand one another". to be true. but usually it does not happens.

Young ones especially, they are easily influenced by what they see in cinemas. if love is so pure and so true, there would't be any divorce cases between couples.. The rendition is often misleading...

-the power of love can make the strongest man fall. the power of love can even touch the most evil cunning hero on earth.-

我到了這個時候還是一樣

夜裡的寂寞容易叫人悲傷

我不敢想的太多

因為我一個人

迎面而光的月光拉長身影

走在

漫無

目地的街

我沒有妳的消息

因為我在想妳

motherfucker.

2005-04-14T01:37:00.000-07:00

To the pussy who tagged my frens blog and tink he's super macho:

Stop being a whimp n quick being gay.

i hate pussies and people who curse and swear behind their coms. r u such a mother-fuckin pussy?.. wad happened to ur balls man?.. show me something, for once. a thing or two..

if u dun have shit, stop bull shitting and show wad u got. u have NOTHING, shit. stop saying those hokkien verses.. can u speak fucking english?.. oh yea.?.. take it to the west side. how bout a rap battle.? or a break battle?..

or if u tink u're so full of shit with ur fist. come on, man.. jus bring it.. dun sit there like a wuss. stop whinning. dun tell me to watch out. shit.. if u're game enough, come..

eh DICK HEAD. yea, i was refering to u.. stop posting in my hommies' blog. u aint got shit dude.. u know who u r.. and motherfucker, stop laughin. u look stupid. and dick head. shut ur bladdy trap for once. b4 i go over there and fuck both u and ur wife up.

-enuff said-

some people really pisses me off. there's a sayin goes "action speaks louder than words"..

13th april.

2005-04-13T12:04:00.000-07:00

who do u tink of, when u're lonely?

=)

10th april

2005-04-10T14:02:00.000-07:00

a dedication to a special friend

10th april..

thinking back a year ago, tis was where my love life has started. it was pretty sweet, thinking back of the good old times, made me smile and laugh.. the memorable events will always be embedded in my head..

i remember back then, we were at istana park, where i'd actually asked her.. hahas. it was after clubbing tt time. here it went.

me: lets go istana park.

she: ok.

*it was ard 4am in the morning, the park was quite empty except for a couple over there. we manage to grab a empty seat deep inside the park*

i jus stare out, beginning to sober down.

me: wad time do u have to get home?

she: before my parents wake up.

me: around wad time?..

she: around 6 like that. i got to sneak in b4 my maid wakes up. if not i m in deep shit.

me: oh.....

*i look at her and smiled*
*she smiled back*
*we were sitting real close at that time*

me: er..

she: yar?

*i finally build up the courage and decided to ask her*

me: can u be my girlfriend?

she: *nods her head*

me: i m not drunk, real sober. n i m serious.

she: *smile back* yes. and laugh a lil.

me: * i gave her a hug*

*we only moved out of the park when she received quite a few of mosquito bites n b4 we realise it, it was like 5.30am. how time flies*

(on the bus)

me: heyyyy.. u tink i m drunk rite?. i m purely sober. i'm serious ya know..

she: *this time laughin* yes.. i m serious.

-hahahas.. yes it was damn funny-

she: it actually toooooook u how long to ask me that question.

me: i dunno. i was waiting for u..

she: i gave u so many hints. that kissed and held ur hands......

me: hahas. i was still shy.

(i've loved u with my entire heart, loved u more than i loved myself..)

-end-

u said "friends forever". but u didnt came back to say hi.. u left w/o a word.

Confessions

there are things of, that u're unaware. i cant seem to tell u. cos u wun believe another word from my mouth. wad i have seen and wad i have heard is a total shame that i too cant believe. i tried many ways to reach u but to no avail.. believe me this once, that i m over with u. do not hear from others, how i m, if i m alright. come and see for urself. i'm pretty much fine.. i think i have done my part as a friend. the one advice that i can say "look near for the problem lies within".. u'll know wad i mean. thats wad i have to say. thank u. i never regretted knowing u.

fever

2005-04-07T23:57:00.000-07:00

had fever today.. super sick. but now is subsiding. another shitty weak ahead.

April..

if wad i have, is wad i m and wad i have is lost,den wad m i?

gonna get some slp. =)

still considering should i go do my hair tis sat. =) bang bian zi..

2005-04-06T19:50:00.000-07:00

yes.

i dunno y u enjoy being hurt. cant u see, r u blind?.. ur boyfriend's out there cheating on u. i had a chat wif him, n he told me he cant forget about his ex. the next thing i see him wif some other gal in a club, hooking other gals up.. = / .

i cant open my mouth to tell u. cos u wun believe. u will think that i m getting back at u. i worry for u. i dunno wads in ur mind rite now..

cant u c that, i jus want to be a friend not a foe..

threats.

2005-04-05T00:39:00.000-07:00

yea..
there r things that i shld let her knw. but there r times, i tink i should jus shut up.. it doesnt pay to be mr nice guy here. besides, u think she'll even listen to me?.. who m i to her anyway?

so how m i suppose to break the news to her?.

i saw ur bf. he was kissing n grinding another gal.

she'll prob laugh her head off.

oh well.. i cannot be bothered wif other ppl's story..may as well shut up and everything's gonna be fine. =) (minding my own business will save my ass)

learnt a lesson. it never pays to be kind.~

to who it may concern:

tagger.. i know who u r.
if i offend u in anyway,
i'm sorry.

but i dun tink i did.
as a matter of fact.
who says i go gym?.
u got the wrong guy dude..
n i certainly m living well.
thanks for ur concern.

=).. i hope there r no more misunderstandings here.
thank u, n god bless.

clubbing..

2005-04-03T07:13:00.000-07:00

Poetry of a guy.

How come every girl likes the guys that treat them like shit??

And the one guy that actually shows he cares they only like alittle bit??

Why am I the one they come to when they are hurt and upset??

Because they found out a secret about their boyfriend that could not be kept

Then you say....I can talk to you about anything we get along so well.

If you say that then it has to mean something, It should ring some kind of bell.

I'm the guy every girl wants but never seems to date

Are they afraid I'll make them feel something that their heart can not take??

Why don't you take that chance and let me make you feel like you never felt before

Actually treat you the way you should be treated, Like a person not a whore.

I'm the person that takes your heart and rebuilds it when someone breaks it in two

I'm the guy that gives you advice when you have no idea what to do

I'm the person you confide in about your worries and your fears

I'm the person thats there with the shoulder to cry on when you shed all your tears

If I am all these things, Why cant I be more than just a friend??

Why can't I be that guy that will love and care for you from the beginning to the end??

You tell me you cant stand being with him cause he doesn't treat you right

Then you say he always yells at you and all y'all do is fight

If all this is true why do you continue to stick around??

It's not like he has you tied or chained up bound

The decisions you make tend to reflect what you want out of life.

So you are saying that you want to be treated like this, and be some assholes wife???

Then 5 years down the road you want to sit around and wonder, what if i did this?? what if i did that??

Then call me up and want to know if you could have that chance back

The chance to be overwhelmed with something new and exciting

To be able to wake up everyday with out the yelling and the fighting

A chance for me to make all your dreams and desires a reality

Take all your hurt and pain and make them a casualty

But by the time you actually come to realize this and tell him goodbye

I'll be gone and still only remembered as the Nice Guy...

Soccer

2005-04-01T02:32:00.000-08:00

Played soccer wif my peeps todae. more like a class gathering. n the injuries i sustained is unimaginable.

Incident no1
u wldnt believe this. the ball came flying. i tried to header it. i jumped."whamp" jus to get kick in the face by darren neo. yes, the guy who took 1/2 hr to try on pants. OUCH. i fell on to the ground like humpty dumty. went like HOLY FUCK! WAD WERE U TRYING TO PULL OFF?.. den everyone rush over to ask if i was ok. Omg, if i was alright, i wldnt be there clutching my face.

Incident no2
i was like trying to tackle calvin. he dribble dribble. den i trip over the ball n his leg. went "ke bap bap" n somersaulted a few times, n when i stopped i was like clutching my damn ankle. n they rush to me and asked "r u ok?" r they stupid?.. if i m ok, i wun be clutching shit and be up kicking. it hurt like how lucifer tormented the husbands who forced their wifes to give em blow jobs. i was in pain..

The outcome
after the game, i decided to go to the doc. the 1 @ potong pasir. i clutch my face n my blardi ankle and hop into the cab. paid like 7bucks. n when i reach my destination. wads best. THE FREAKIN clinic is closed. OMG. wad a nice day i had.. i wasted 7bucks for nothing. n i realise i didnt have enuff money to take cab home. no choice but to take a bus back.

the pain down at my ankle was excruciating. so badly tt once i stepped out the bus, i walk 20steps n stopped to sit on the steps of the overhead bridge. n den there was tis lady giving me a wierd look. tt i gonna upskirt her. WTF. i was like. FUCK. i m in pain, n now, she tink i m... serious fucked. i grab my stuff n started limping back home, n not stopping any further.

when i finally reached home. my right swollen foot gotten 1 n a 1/2 times bigger den my left. it took me 3 min to talk from my room to the kitchen. so fucked up till i had to crawl. n now that i m bloggin, i bet u motherfuckers out there whose reading this, is fuckin laughin to urself. Lol..

shopping.

2005-03-31T01:45:00.000-08:00

ok.. basically went shopping wif darren, calvin, ben, shaun leong aka muka tupie.

hahas. they shop like gals. take so long to try on, and kept commentin. OMG. thank god i m used to it. all the shopping wif alicia. hahas. n when i tot alicia was kinda worst. look at darren. hahas. 30min inside the changing room trying pants. lolx. who can break the record?.. even i pcc oso not tt long lor. lol. =)

BG-> hahahas. crystal marie wong?!.. usually ppl wif nice names hav ugly looks. lol.

Darren -> wow. lets go shopping some other day. and i will help u approach gals when i overcome my shyness. hahas.

Cal-> oei.. i show u wad's called real music. stop listening to techno! =P when i get cash, we go billy bombers eat ok. *freeloaders are not invited*

Shawn Leong-> have a fetish for billabong. he's one great freeloader. budget club. wan to come back the nxt day to shop cos got 5% off. omg. hahahahahhas.

at least, i killed one day. another 9more months to go. b4 ns starts. LOL.

tings to do/get b4 my ns.

1. motorbike
2. i-pod mini
3. clothes
4. braids/cornrows
5. open more parties.
6. earn more money
7. go m'sia shoppin.
8. private diploma in business (6months course)

~do meaningful n enjoyable things when u r still young, dun spend ur times regrettin wad u shld do when u hav already grown up~

end of march..

2005-03-30T02:07:00.000-08:00

this morning i woke up.. woken up by jia pei's phone call. so happen she chao sch. i met up wif her and went to s'goon gardens. did some catching up. she still look like a butch to me. hahas.

later after tt, i went to find my pals.. nothing happenin as usual. super boring.. craped out. n they disturbed me. instead of goin poly, i m aimin for ns. HAHAHAHAA.. blardi fcuk heads. when i m out of ns. i shall c u strugglin inside wif ur 22yr old shit tar, body..

i wonder.

is the world becoming more ugly. or the people inside making the world ugly.

~if i could travel at the speed of light, i would be able to go back to the past and change history~

2.50

2005-03-28T03:08:00.000-08:00

sighs.

awful day at gym. the thought of NS in my head, makes me feel excited and thrilled but yet boring. i have doubts pursuing my dream. maybe, its time for me to listen to the adults for once. maybe, jus maybe if'd i listened earlier. tis wldnt have happened to me.

so much thoughts and queries, lingers in my mind. but no matter how hard i try, there r no answers..

i m still deciding if i shld go down poly tml to appeal. = /
or i wonder is it her tt i want to take designing?.
i guess not.

fuck joel for telling me not to go ns.. fuck u. u want to go triple E. u cant even get into poly. want to appeal wad shit?.. hahas. beat me N level, O level, billard, CS, warcraft den come and tok to me. Hahas. hehs.

wake up ur ideas.

Lol.

den my dear alicia went into interior design. not the course she wanted.

the main problem y we cldnt end up the course we want, is not cos we didnt study hard enuff. is the FUCKING BABY BOOM PERIOD. FUCK U DRAGON BABIES.

sighs. no use. wad shall i do?..

the best way, jus slp.

-if the lord brings me to it, he will bring me through it-

pouring rain.

2005-03-26T17:48:00.000-08:00

cycled to ming quan's hse ynite. cycled wif him to jalan kayu to eat prata wif joehan.. long time didnt c em. boy, joehan have a big dream. i wldnt be surprised if he make it big out there. he's so talented in many ways..

todae made my way back from ming quan's hse. cycled thru the pouring rain. n the best, my slippers gave way. n i had a hard time cycling back. craps..

jus had a long warm bath. n i'm feeling lazy now.

= /

i wonder.

wad have i done now?.. that she's avoiding me. i reflected on my actions and words and i cant find any that made her react this way.

if u're reading this, i'm so sooorry.

i hope we can start over as frens again.
i dun wanna lose a good fren, a brilliant fren like u.

=)

2005-03-25T19:11:00.000-08:00

juS woke up from my long nap.

another long and boring day. gonna meet nicky and joehan for prata later.

yawns.

my body aches from yday gym.

=)

SentoSa.

2005-03-22T23:04:00.000-08:00

ok.

jus came back from sentosa. was pissed wif ppl who asked me to book hotel resort, but in the end didnt turn up. everything on on.. but in the end. thee shant sae. but nonetheless it was enjoyable.

Stayed there for 3 days 2 nites.. i've been like slacking, sun tanning, soccer, n socialising. hahas. i'm as red as a lobster now. damn..

on the 1st day,
so happen my outing coincide wif my class outing. so it wasnt so boring. played soccer wif em from afternoon till nite. darren neo and peeps. =)

on the 2nd day,
boy, was there a heated argument.. my frens. a misunderstanding. but later solved, thanks to me. =)

on the 3rd day,
everyone left, so in the end i followed daniel and met up wif his frens. they were quite friendly and stuff.. we even made frens wif a group of gals and some ah pui's (ex convicts). omg. hahas. was chilling out wif em. was only attracted to 1.. the 1 in BLACK ROXY BIKINI. boy, she's hot. damn, i'm shy. i cldnt take the courage to talk to her. hahas. was thick skin enuff to ask sun tanning lotion, and at the end, my group of guys free loaded the lotion. hahas.

i was havin a match wif the ex convict. OMG. they look fierce though, but when i sat down drank and chatted wif em, they turned out to be nice people. they taught me everything on how to survive the cold world. yes, they'd regretted what they did to get their ass in prison. 20 years in prison.. thats long. i bet they didnt hav contact from the outside world and how they played soccer, otherwise 1 of em wldnt slide tackle me from behind. i almost trip and fell on him. it's a cheap shot. I CLD HAVE SCORED THE MAGNIFICENT GOAL.

yea.. i was kinda interested in their life and stuff. chatted longer and stuff. N THEY APPROACHED GALS. HAHAHHAS.. they're like 35+ to 45+ yrs old, and they approach 20yrs old gals. hahas. damn funny. but everyone enjoyed themselves. i played soccer wif the gals and the convicts.

yea.. den there was tis guy, who didnt went into prison. was super friendly. N i found out he was one of the big shots in the gang. OMG. n he stay opposite me. he exchanged no's wif me and after that, he said "if got any problem, jus call me.. i mean anything happen or problem. i will take care of u" i was like .... i dunno how to reply him. but ok. jus be frens good enuff.. He looked fierce and stern, but in fact, he's super nice..

sun tanned a little while more, and i left for home sweet home.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..

=)

yAwns

2005-03-18T04:22:00.000-08:00

jUs came baq from clubbing

i swear man. its one of the best i went so far beside industry. n its super happening.

grinded wid some gals dun mention guys. its so damn packed can?.. ahahas. clara and her frens came down. my frens chen and james were all there too. saw lots of my stpats fren there. wada hell. n boy. did they change so much..

i was attracted to this gal. hahas. yes. its her. and i will get her. = ) time to stop looking back but to move forward to a new beginning.

i did wanted to take wad i had wif stiffy a dream, but i m only lying to myself. she and me. the memories and the fantastic memories, will be embedded in my mind foreva. (thank u for the things u hav done for me, i really appreciated it. u'll always be my fren, and my good fren who i can share my probs wif.) =) i've neva regretted knowing u. having u is already a dream come true.. *i hope u're reading this* i jus wanna let u knw, tt i will always be here for u..

Stiffy and me.

*wad else can i do but to sit back and smile, i shall leave it to the hands of fate.*

- the power of love is so great that it can makes the mighty fall -

who is it tt can make me love again?. = )

= )

2005-03-17T01:19:00.000-08:00

yAwns..

wenta gym, met darren at gym. boy, he has a hot body.. i aint gay. jus admiring his body. giv me 1/2 a yr and i wld be in that shape. hees.

next wenta gav my mom a surprise bdae celebration. she was so happy. i neva see her so happy b4.. wheees.

n now i m on my bed. thinkin of the past. = ) and wrote part of a song. it goes.

Cigars in the summertime
under the sky by the light
I can feel you read my mind
I can see it in your eyes
Under the moon as it plays like music every line
There's a rug lying outside my room
With our passions burning high
By the moon light shining so bright
It's always Stiffy and me tonight

Say oh-oh..

Cos Stiffy and me like to go down town
Turn the radio up; and blast it loud
And Stiffy and me like to gaze at starry skies
Close our eyes, pretend to fly

Say oh-oh.. Um no-no

Sitting by the beach, staring out of the dim light
But still Stiffy and I are alone beneath the sky
Feel the wind brushing slowly by
If I could soar I would try to take these wings and fly
Away to where the leaves turn red
But no matter where I am instead
Singing along to "Feeling Alright"
Or making it by in the pink moonlight
It's always Stiffy and me tonight

Say oh-oh..

Cos Stiffy and me like to go down town
Turn the radio up; blast it out loud
And Stiffy and me like to gaze at starry skies
Close our eyes, pretend to fly

..............

yet to finish. it sounds nice.

= )

2005-03-14T22:58:00.000-08:00

i jus woke up like 30min ago.

bods dying from tt aching gym.

= ) ..

dreamt of her.
how much i long for her.
i dunno why m i always having this wierd dream.
i cant seem to dream of other things.

*no matter how much i tried to tie the broken string, it will always be broken and weak*

= / ...

-pls dun come near-

i'm afraid.

-pls dun b nice to me-
i'm confused.

-dun make me jealous-
i cant control my emotions.

~!~~~~~~~~~~~!~~~~~~~~~~~~~!~~~~~~~~~~~~!~~~~~~~~~~~~!~~~~~~~~

now now.. its yr2005. everyones goin their own seperate. i wonder where wld i be. i feel so left out. so left out. its so cold out there..

where's my sunshine after the pouring rain?..

-i made believe theres no real love, for my age, everyones a player-

bored.

2005-03-14T00:37:00.000-08:00

from gym to work to home.

wad a boring day. but at least i smiled at work!.. hehs. sure..

u're the sunshine after the pouring rain.
u're the rainbow painted across the sky.

even though i cant have u now,
i never regretted,
having u in my life.

cos havin u is a dream come true..

=)

= \

2005-03-12T21:36:00.000-08:00

i wenta work @ the IT fair.. it was a long and boring day..

after that, i went to stiffy's hse to celebrate her bdae. gosh, i feel so left out. she n her bf n her bf frens celebrating. = / it wasnt such a good idea goin there. seein her so happy, makes me feel happy for her. yea.. i went up to del and apologised to him.. told him to take care of stiffy. cos he's the one she really love. i sincerely giv em my blessings. some how i wish i was the one. i believe the day wld come for me. fate. destiny.

i walk alone.

next we were out drinking. b4 i knew it chen, harry, corn were all drunk.. left me. hahas. the ultimate winner. yes i did brag. i cldnt get drunk. but i didnt really brag alot. den there was tis guy name eugene. i guessed. he dared me for a drink... -dentist chair.

i really didnt want to. cos i knw i sure wld b drunk. den he said "either u drink or u go home." den he asked my frens if they'd wanna drink. nobody wanted to. and he said "go home"..

boy was i pissed. my frens. her frens. came for her party, n end up being told to go home?!?.. tts super mean. i looked at everyone, unable to take up the challenge. i decided to go instead. if any1 is to go home, i shld be the one going home..

they gav me some fruity drink to drink first. to kill the wine taste. den after i open my mouth. dey pour the whole bottle of red wine into my mouth... too fast. i cant swallow. i put my hand to tell em to stop. but dey continued..

it was like awhile later when ken saw me struggling, he asked him to stop. too late. the wine went up my nose. burned..

i downed like 3/4 of the bottle. m still alife.. i jus beared 2 words in my mind "go home.." i told em to hit me hard. giv me a few more shots.. and i down another 3-4 more shots before i left..

on my way to chen hse, i punched some boards till my hand was severed and black out some lamp pose. hahas.. i was pissed..

pissed at everything... but hey. i survived the torment. =)

i know i m not accepted here, i shall take my leave.